stream of consciousness: existentialism

i disagree with everything i've been told about it.

this is why:
idealist are always hypocrites.
we don't have complete control over our actions.
people are inherently social and affected by others.
our minds and thoughts are partially products of our genetics.

what strikes me about existentialism is that it allows people to not to care ... but still keep their guilt.

whatever, i'm 16, i don't know anything. that's just what it looks like.
(looks like? "looks" what i'm i seeing? zilch)

emerson told me to trust myself "self reliance".

i luv you emerson. i love that essay - or whatever it is.
(is it an essay?)

who was it that warned america about political parties?
apparently no one was paying attention. or people just can't help themselves.

we do end up in groups.
doesn't mean we have to stop being individuals.

i like democracy.
groups of individuals.
personally though, america seems a little big.
more power for local governments i think.

i have a friend who has a grandfather who says things and i have forgotten what i was saying. that self reliance thing got my brain all "upside-downy".

"upside-downy"
greta garbo said that.