i had a thought

as i understand capitalism, there is supposed to be a percentage of the population unemployed... soooooo in order to live in a socially responsible capitalist country we should have a safety net for adults who are unemployed not necessarily because of their own failure but because that's how the system is set up.

ho! what a fine plan! how should that be organized?

well it could be a government thing... or! or the people profiting from this here american capitalism could help the people who are suffering for their success. HO! yeah!

if the world requires some inspiration they should clink on this sentence, right here, clickity click.

wait... "filed teeth"?

when i was lying in bed last night it occurred to me that in "An Outpost of Progress" by Joseph Conrad the displaced "workers" are described as having filed teeth. The main characters, which i only remember as K and C, where described as fearful, regressed, child men. So why weren't they afraid of people with pointy teeth?

other weird before i fall asleep thoughts:

- is proliferous a word? like something that proliferates a lot...

- what if i have been mixing up "then" and "than" my whole spelling career?

- i want to learn how to make salmon burgers.... i had a really good salmon burger at that one restaurant.... what is that place called?.... and carmel popcorn! i could make carmel popcorn for the food gatherers bake sale..... yeah.... i could put them in individual plastic bags....

not really

i don't mind when...

- people mispronounce my name
- it rains
- i hear nail biting/knuckle cracking/"tapping"
- my hair gets tangled
- a radio station gets lost crossing state lines
- the neighborhood dogs bark at night
- the commercial breaks get longer as a television program progresses
- cashiers give me 5 pennies

it's fine
don't worry
(sometimes i 1/2 lie when other people say these things bother them.)

a response/meaningless raving

Re: summer clothes - feeling the good vibrations, i choose them to stay

hahahahahaha
luvly vani, you have hit on the perfect example of why "trends" are lame.

fashion is art. forever 21 is the equivalent of a poster board art print.

its like that story you read shivani,
the artist
or something ...... gogol wrote it
the artist got all mainstream sell out business for the money

people don't need to emulate high fashion in their everyday wardrobes.
better to just hint at it... like a tribute - instead of a desperate failure

from the natalie chapman spring/summer '10

The Glass Menagerie (part uno)

this guy who calls himself Tennessee, he wrote some plays.
i am reading one

i think he must have been an odd fish.

one of my teachers said that you should try not to think about authors while reading.
i say fuck that,
because Mr. Williams sort of invites the reader to get involved in something something fallacy
(not the pathetic fallacy, the other one)

also
T.W. (to personal? whtevr...) dislikes fire escapes, uh...
because society is burning down and all that. but that is all part of the metaphors and clearly he his transferring his anger.

they say transference is bad. why? well duh... but still.

LOTSA metaphors....
Jesus ............................

come out and say it.

why i am a hippo-crit aren't i.

stream of consciousness: existentialism

i disagree with everything i've been told about it.

this is why:
idealist are always hypocrites.
we don't have complete control over our actions.
people are inherently social and affected by others.
our minds and thoughts are partially products of our genetics.

what strikes me about existentialism is that it allows people to not to care ... but still keep their guilt.

whatever, i'm 16, i don't know anything. that's just what it looks like.
(looks like? "looks" what i'm i seeing? zilch)

emerson told me to trust myself "self reliance".

i luv you emerson. i love that essay - or whatever it is.
(is it an essay?)

who was it that warned america about political parties?
apparently no one was paying attention. or people just can't help themselves.

we do end up in groups.
doesn't mean we have to stop being individuals.

i like democracy.
groups of individuals.
personally though, america seems a little big.
more power for local governments i think.

i have a friend who has a grandfather who says things and i have forgotten what i was saying. that self reliance thing got my brain all "upside-downy".

"upside-downy"
greta garbo said that.